Toad the Wet Sprocket: “Woodburning” from Dulcinea
by Ari Koinuma on Mar.15, 2010, under (Heavy) Music Heals, Lessons of Life, Our Best Version, Pensive Rock
It always strikes me as a bit odd when I discuss our finances with my wife.
Because I always find myself going “if our spending this month is high (or low)….”
Wait a minute. Why am I talking about the spending as if it’s something that happens to us?
Don’t I actually decide whether to spend money or not?
Sure, shxt happens sometimes. Car breaks down, kids get sick…. money goes out.
But does it really? Is life something that just happens to us?
Take the longest day
Waste it all away
I can’t stand it
But I can’t do anything
Everyday’s the same
Nothing ever change
I can’t stand it
But I can’t do anything
That funny feeling is what “Woodburning” is about, to me. The frustration of realizing that I am not in control of myself. And yes, I think it is very, very funny, because I am the only thing I actually have control over. It’s everything else, that I can’t control.
Then why am I spending so much time trying to manipulate everything else?
Them, I really can’t do anything about. Things happen to me.
But my life is more than just automatic reactions to things happening to me.
It has to be. I really have to make it so.
Because I can’t stand the thought of leaving my life up to some thing happening to me.
No, I will not stand it.
