That sounds real silly but it’s true.

Yesterday I had two conversations that really challenged me.

First, I was in a group mentoring call with a business call about turning business concepts about money.  It was a good discussion but what I got out of it was that I have Resitance and Blockage still.  Because every time the concept of business success was applied to my music, I felt a strong voice inside arguing against it, claiming how it didn’t apply.  I was told in the call that I was perhaps too close to my art to be able to market it articulately.

Ouch.  It stung, but I came away with the sense that I heard what I needed to hear.

Then, last night I had a conversation with a close friend/colleague of mine.  I was sharing with her that I’d love to gain experience from being inside a juggernaut of a small business — one that’s tiny yet cutting-edge and growing rapidly.  I intend to own such a business one day so I’d like to experience how such an entity is run from the inside.

But the real crux was when that discussion led to how she and I should form a mini web agency and put together a web site that outlines exactly what we offer, in a way we wished businesses were done.  I got super-excited and ideas were pouring out.

Then I went to bed.

In my dream, I was in a big spaceship with my family.   And there were these tiny, black beetle-like creature roaming around, and it was getting bigger by the minute.  Not only that, it was vicious — one front leg was shaped like a spear and the other looked like a pair of scissors.  And it was walking around, cutting down and penetrating people with those monstrous weapons.  Soon the beast was bigger than humans, and while I beat one, there were couple more still growing.  And somewhere in there President Obama showed up, and there was an assassination plot — I had to warn him.

Wow, that totally sounds like B horror movie script, but in my dream I was terrified.

Then I woke up and thought, ah, there it is.  I’m feeling the Fear of Success.

You know, I wouldn’t feel the fear unless I didn’t sense a Success lying in that direction.

I’m onto something.  It doesn’t feel good, but yet, this is really good.