Yesterday I wrote a blog post, which I ended up not publishing, because I didn’t feel good about it. It turned into another longing piece, reflecting on where I have been and how it’s so far from where I want to be.
Then I realized that that’s really not helping me, that’s why it didn’t feel good. I need to focus on where I want to go, instead of where I am. You don’t get to the destination just by looking at the current location.
So, here’s my current wish list of sorts.
First and foremost, I want abundant time and resources and demand for creating my music. It’s so much that realizing what I have in my head, it’s what I do all the time. And to know and have people around me who are really appreciative of what I do. I work hard to create uniqueness and authenticity in my songwriting and guitar playing — and they don’t go unnoticed.
To go with the above, I want to invite more champions in my life. My singer Bob is one of my champions — more people like him. More people who think highly enough of what I do that they make it their business to help me do what I do. Like Bob’s singing and arranging of gigs/performances, others can contribute with their interests and gifts — executing marketing plans, web development (I can do it, but my time is needed elsewhere), design, photography, legal, organizing, proofreading, social networking, and most of all, putting a gun to my head and demanding music.
I would like to equip myself with tools that make production effortless. A new quad-core MacBook Pro with SSD, my two electric guitars serviced and set up with noiseless pickups, finish assembling my pedalboard, 1-2 quality mics and mic pres. A new pair of glasses are needed, too. After that, I am dreaming of putting together a custom guitar, one that reflects the unique person that I am, just like Brian May’s guitar.
I want time to organize my office/studio — so that I can get rid of everything I don’t need and have a uncluttered space, all set up and streamlined for making music and playing my guitar.
So that’s where I am going. I don’t know why it’s so scary to come out with naked desires like this, but there I have it. These are what my heart desires, as of March 13, 2012.