This year a new dream emerged in my head, and now I can’t stop thinking about it.
I’d like to create a private community, a secret hideout where I feel safe to bare all.
Of course I want other members to feel safe to share their private thoughts also.
You see, I think I have way more secrets than I’d like to carry around. Stuff I’d like to share and discuss, but don’t have a place to go. These thoughts are like little children needing to be heard. As a parent, I have experienced a number of occasions where kids pout, resist or protest something, but such tantrum dissipates once I hear them out and let them know I understand what they’re talking about. (“You just don’t get it!” is my son’s favorite phrase when he’s mad)
I’m a thinker and I have many thoughts concerning health, spirituality, religion, sexuality, and so on. There are so many taboos and while I’m all for speaking my mind and letting haters have at it, it takes a lot of resolve to do it in places where anybody and everybody can see and voice their reactions. Being an empath means I’m not that thick skinned. I get vibes from words on screen or people’s facial expressions/tones of their voice and they can feel very distracting, if not intrusive, even if I can understand where they’re coming from.
I believe that some of our inner pain comes from holding on to these secrets, the stuff we are afraid we can’t share. But music can bring people together in a unique, powerful way. I feel a certain degree of kinship with passionate fans of U2 and Cloud Cult, because these are artists who strongly project values that resonate with me (even if I don’t like some of their music). I’d like to use my music as a gate to a little underground society where we treat each other gently, kindly, compassionately. Where we can let our inner children out of the solitary cells that they’re in, so that they can play and sing and throw tantrum.
I don’t know how it’s going to play out, but I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s a happy thought for me.