Fear of Bliss

“Follow your bliss” sounds easy but it’s anything but for some people. I’m feeling a lot of anxiety since coming to that realization a few days ago. Apparently struggling was my defense mechanism. It was a way to make myself blameless. Kind of saying “hey look, I’m already working very …

Still Awkward

It’s still scary and awkward. You’d think that since I post on YouTube, I must know what I’m doing, right? Naaah. Just about every time I post, I look at myself and go “ugh. Really? Is this any good?” Not because I don’t believe in what I’m saying. Where I …

Ikigai

I am many things, but among them being a rock guitarist is the dearest to my heart.   Rock music is the most intense kind of music. You have to go all in. You can’t rock when you’re hold back. I crave that reckless abandon. I tend to think too …