U2 “Bad” from The Unforgettable Fire

U2: The Unforgettable Fire

The profound depth of this song comes alive to me on those nights, when out of stress and desperation, I stay awake listening to dueling voices in my head.

You know, all the yearning and longing, all the wishing for things not to be the way they are.  They may motivate you or give you impulses to do something, perhaps something drastic — but they are also always disturbing and uncomfortable, they leave you restless.

I used to think that this desire was a good thing, it made me get up and confront things, to make changes.  And perhaps it can be useful in some low places, where any energy is better than none.

But as I climb higher, I realized that accepting things did not take away the desire to change.  I don’t stop challenging, I don’t stop climbing higher even when I accept everything — because every phase contains challenges.  And I don’t stop doing things that are right.  If anything, complete acceptance of your situation makes it clearer what things need to be done, because you’re free of short-term desperation and needs.  You directly place your finger on the right things, because your inner compass will tell you that they are right.  You’re not looking to produce specific results.  You just know, in your shoes, which choices are the correct and meaningful ones — and choosing them, by itself, is right, regardless of what comes out of it.

When you get there, bumps and grinds of daily dramas fade away into more gentle curves.  Life moves around you but you don’t move as much.  You deal with twists and turns with less drastic adjustments.  You have less need for intense highs, and start dwelling in a quieter, stiller place.

If you twist and turn away
If you tear yourself in two again
If I could, yes I would
If I could, I would
Let it go


If I could throw this
Lifeless lifeline to the wind
Leave this heart of clay
See you walk, walk away
Into the night
And through the rain
Into the half-light
And through the flame

If I could through myself
Set your spirit free
I’d lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day

To let it go
And so to fade away

I’m wide awake
I’m wide awake
I’m not sleeping

There are many things in life that are meant to be broken.   So try not to hold on to them.

Because important things will remain in the end.