So, it’s another birthday. I am 47.
Which sounds older to me than how I feel. If someone told me this is what it’s like to be 47 decades ago, I would not have believed it.
Physically, I am in the best shape of my life. I am stronger and more flexible than ever.
Mentally I still feel like parts of me really haven’t changed since my early 20s. And I relate to them, too, judging by the young people who engage me.
And that may be good and bad. In 25 years since embarking, the dream I set out to pursue, I haven’t realized yet. I don’t mind that I had a longer-than-expected journey. I am not jaded yet and remain hopeful.
But I keep saying that each year, and the dream stays ahead of me. The promise is starting to sound hollow. Every few years I arrive at a point of clarity and go “right, I think I have this figured out. All I need is to give it some time to let it grow.” Then years go by, my clarity dissolves. I change and evolve, and the dream stays ahead.
The key there, though, is the “change and evolve.” I believe that the reason why I haven’t made it is because I was not finished growing up. And the truth is, I still don’t know if I’m grown enough.
But maybe that’s how it’s supposed to be. Living a life full of learning and evolving. Every year I become a better person. You cannot pay me enough to go back to being a 22- or even 35-year old.
Goals fixated on outcomes are overrated anyway. Life is what happens when you’re on the way. The most important point isn’t to see your vision become reality. It’s to spend your life in pursuit.
That being said, goals absolutely matter. You get on a journey because you have some place to go. This isn’t for everyone, but for me not going after my dream is a copout.
So let me share with you my dream, as of my 47th birthday.
I want my creations to be received by hundreds of thousands of people. I have important things I want to share through my music, videos and writing. And my creations become most potent and impactful when a large group of people share them.
It is a great dream. I am happy to be alive.